I went to a synagogue with my cousin, Kathy[1. Third cousin OR first cousin, twice removed], who was invited by a friend of hers who goes there. Josh Nelson Project, a Jewish rock band, was performing.
I KNOW. TOTALLY UNEXPECTED, RIGHT??!!
Kathy’s friend, Calvin[2. I think this was his name!], ended up buying me a shirt and a CD for $25 after one of the guys at the table said that I obviously needed one. I’m forever grateful, because new music is awesome. Aside from that, the concert (was it that?)/performance was really unique and not like anything I’ve ever seen or experienced before. I’m happy I got to get the CD, though, as I really admired the music. There are some musics you can feel from the instruments via the vibrations, but I felt this from the heart. It’s beautiful and unique, and it wasn’t that it was loud that allowed me to feel it from my heart – it was the energy from the other people in the room we were in! Another thing that intrigued me was that this music was their religion, and yet they did more than clapping – they danced a bit, even moving their booties!
Some kids were there from all around Texas and some places in Oklahoma. They were staying with families who attended the synagogue and had volunteered to “host” them [for the weekend, I guess]. They were basically sixteen year olds, and they were up and dancing and fangirling and fanboying over the band. I don’t know that this ever would have been allowed in a Christian rock concert – the behavior, really, like the booty dancing.
It was an awesome, amazing and a unique experience. :p Afterward, Kathy and I went to Potbelly, a sandwich shop that is much tastier than Subway, and Calvin met up.
If you’re fairly new to my blog and/or you’re completely unaware, in the past I’ve classified myself as a nondenominational Christian, but as time passes I don’t feel that a specific label really needs to be given to me. I’m a Christian, but I like to have an open mind to different and new things and ideas. New experiences are welcomed by me with an open mind[3. Minus a few things I am firmly against for myself, like shock therapy, hypnosis, etc.]. Stephanie described me as a “hard-core Christian”, but whether it’s relevant to her perspective of me now I do not know. I mean, that was in 2011.
Now that you know that…
Before I went to a synagogue, I went on a Joyous Living Retreat. It seemed to be about mostly meditation and finding inner peace.
Yeah. I did not know this before going. I was told it was with her church. Now, I don’t say church; I say “church”. It’s a totally different perspective and take on things. Someone in my group (or seated at the same table as I) said something about Science of Mind, and I came home and researched what it meant. I did this because I was silently freaking out about this whole thing, because the only time I’ve heard science in something that had to do with a religious activity (aside from actual science-science) was in scientology.
It’s all about positive energy and being joyous and living life joyfully, and there was zero prayer and/or mention of God unless it was using his name in the exclamation, “Oh, my God!” Definitely wasn’t what I was used to.
I did get something out of it. I learned that there are some open-minded people in the world, even in Texas. I also learned that religious meditation (meaning meditation regarding how I should live joyously according to my wishes) is not the lifestyle for me. The majority of the time, I felt as though it was being inferred that my being depressed and such was because I was holding onto the past – even when I’ve literally tried my darned hardest to let go of it and pretend it never existed/didn’t matter anymore/etc.
However, I will not look down upon those who live that lifestyle, as it is their choice. Mine is to continue my faith in how I feel is best and works best for me.
The people in my group were really positive, but I wouldn’t have minded being told something that wasn’t positive. When I talk about doing something [like we did] as though it’s in the future [like we did], it doesn’t happen. Also, I receive positive feedback from that, and it doesn’t help me. In fact, doing said exercise made me feel even shittier about myself.
…I wouldn’t, however, mind going to another one of Josh Nelson Project’s concerts again, though. 😉
Anyway, I know this is nearing 1000 words, but I really hope you guys enjoyed reading ALL about my venture outside of the Christian bubble (the strict one, anyway!). 😉
Aside from whatever you wish to say about what I did today, has your perspective of me changed?
If you loved this post, please share or buy me a pretzel: